I thought I’d never be back so quick again,

To the heart grieve and torch,

To the soul lost and pain,

The days that you could, change and switch,

Alas my hopes became now in vain,

I lost the magic touch,

Once sanity had left, out of the pale brain,

The moment you said, to me now good-bye….

Why was the dream for me, just so fine?

While was the road ahead, so tough and hard,

The stars no more, afterwards to shine,

The moon stayed with, sorrow there so sad,

The nights became again, for them but not mine,

Can you be so silly, and can I be so mad,

To let the future vanish, by saying no sign,

The moment you said, to me now good-bye…

So hard ….so hard ….so hard

Your words were so clear,

And aimed for the end,

Your eyes said Oh dear,

Don’t go an keep the wind,

The same time the tiger,

Was finally touched and pressed

No hope it was the fire,

That made my heart to bleed, deep deep and cry …

My mind was not, probably there,

How can you be so certain and sure?

I did try to find, no out somewhere,

To hide the tears of mine, and to stop no more,

I asked you twice, please be fair,

And you slapped the door,

Why can’t you remember?

How many times I was, just for you to try…

So hard ….so hard ….so hard

Why could not my heart, stay and believe?

That your words are those,

And tried from the past, of memory to retrieve,

Comparing thorns to rose,

Hey! My friend, I need to go and leave,

Please do forgive, my own high dose,

I wish you the happiness, and God you to save,

You were great in love, but I have to fly ….

How people can be changed, and easy do forget,

I stopped staring at you, and tried my own film,

The face I could see, was not the one I left,

Some time hence ago, and fixed on the scene,

My luck was so bad, and no hope is lift,

To be shown again, and save my fallen,

Is the pain was kept as surprise?

For me to have it back, full with no shy….

So hard ….so hard ….so hard

Do leave as you wish,

And try, as you need,

My heart always fresh,

To have the future read,

Where you will never, find the same flesh,

To love you a like, as it did indeed,

As it had done, before you threw to trash,

It will be there, and never the memories dye…

May be you will know, one day the truth,

And find your own way, to the heart you left it sad,

My be it will not be too late,

One day you will know, how much it was mad,

There might be no door or window for the wall,

But always do ask, only your heart,

I would try to keep some of that hope,

And I would pray so much for my God,

To keep you happy and safe all the time,

Stare to your heart and focus there mate,

As always you can find my eyes in your heart,

To lead you the way and keep you to shine….

So hard ….so hard ….so hard

Ayman Allabadi

2/4/2003